You Are a Black and White Cookie

You're often conflicted in life, and you feel pulled in two opposite directions. When you're good, you're sweet as sugar. And when you're bad, you're wicked!

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain. People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

Your Values Profile

Loyalty: You don't really value loyalty. In your opinion, friendship should be earned. If you don't agree with someone, it doesn't matter how close you are. You'll let them (and everyone else know) exactly what you think. Honesty: You value honesty a fair amount. You're honest when you can be, but you aren't a stickler for it. If a little white lie will make a situation more comfortable, you'll go for it. In the end, you mostly care about "situational integrity." Generosity: You value generosity a fair amount. You are all about giving, as long as there's some give and take. Supportive and kind, you don't mind helping out a friend in need. But you know when you've given too much. You have no problem saying "no"! Humility: You value humility highly. You have the self-confidence to be happy with who you are. And you don't need to seek praise to make yourself feel better. You're very modest, and you're keep the drama factor low. Tolerance: You value tolerance a fair amount. You are open to new cultures, beliefs, and ideas. You have very few prejudices that you're aware of. And while you are tolerant, you do stand true to what you believe.

Der and I are almost the same, except that I'm a bad cookie sometimes. 

God is good.  There is so much He gives me that I so often take for granted.  There are things He has given me that some how I have felt like I deserve.  I don't deserve anything.  Everything are blessings from Him- breath, health, family, friends, everything that brings meaning to my life.

I need to remember that God gives blessings to me as gifts to take care of.  Friends- God has blessed me with friendships, and He desires that I take care of them.  My relationships are not my own- God has blessed me with relationships, and I want, I must, glorify Him with my relationships.

God, please help me to be selfless in my relationships.  Please help me to serve You and others without expecting anything else in return.  You have given me so many good things- thank You.  You have taken care of me my whole life.  I put my trust and faith in You every day.  I don't have to be worried or concerned about the future. 

Two of my favorite KC songs and descriptions of how I sing them in my car:

Behind These Hazel Eyes

seems like just yesterday                  ...(Sang with growing intensity)
you were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
your arms around me tight
everything felt so right
unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong

no I can't breathe, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am                               ...(letting it loose with flying fists and a mean look!!)
once again
i'm torn into pieces
can't deny it, can't pretend
just thought you were the one
broken up, deep inside
but you wont get to see the tears I cry
behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything                       ...(Sang with vulnerable openness and despair)
opened up and let you in
you made me feel alright
for once in my life
now all that's left of me
is what I pretend to be
sewed together but so broken up inside

no I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am                ...(back to letting it loose with flying fists and a mean look!!)
once again
i'm torn into pieces
can't deny it, can't pretend
just thought you were the one
broken up, deep inside
but you wont get to see the tears I cry
behind these hazel eyes

swallow me then spit me out             ...(Intensity again)
for hating you I blame myself
seeing you, it kills me now
though I dont cry on the outside anymore
anymore

Here I am
once again
i'm torn into pieces
can't deny it, can't pretend
just thought you were the one
broken up, deep inside
but you wont get to see the tears I cry
behind these hazel eyes

Here I am
once again
i'm torn into pieces
can't deny it, can't pretend
just thought you were the one
broken up, deep inside
but you wont get to see the tears I cry
behind these hazel eyes

You Found Me

Is this a dream?                        ...(Sang with a soft smile and growing enthusiasm!)
If it is
Please don't wake me from this high
I've become comfortably numb
Until you opened up my eyes
To what it's like                                      ...(Enthusiasm growing more!)
When everything's right
I can't believe

You found me                                         ...(Sang with open arms and a smile!)
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through                 
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me
You found me

So, here we are                                          ...(Back to a soft voice and faint smile)
That's pretty far
When you think of where we've been
No going back
I'm fading out
All that has faded me within
You're by my side                                      ...(Growing excitement!)
Now everything's fine
I can't believe

You found me                                        ...(Again sang with open arms and a smile!)
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me
You found me

And I was hiding                         ...(Sang with a spirit of amazed gratefulness)
'Til you came along
And showed me where I belong
You found me
You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know?
How did you know?

You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me

(You found me)
(When no one else was lookin')
You found me
(How did you know just where I would be?)
You broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
The good and the bad
And the things in between
You found me
You found me 

Meaningful quotes from just one single episode of my favorite show- Dawson's Creek:

"It's like I'm frozen in this place where I can't bear to be"  ~ Dawson

"It seems like we drifted despite our best efforts" ~ Joey

"Oh, I don't know.  You might be overestimating the best efforts" ~Pacey

"You know maybe if we actually would have done this dinner thing like we planned, the gap wouldn't have gotten so wide" ~Jen

"It's only natural we drift apart a little bit.  I mean, as trite as it sounds, we aren't in high school anymore." ~Dawson

"Do you guys know how lucky you are?  I mean, I can't even name two people I knew when i was 15." ~Audrey

"You know what I envy in you, Pace?  Your ability to see the big picture." ~Joey

"How could I possibly think that everything else would change but we somehow would remain the same?" ~Joey